Awakening to the Dream

The Gift of Lucid Living

Welcome The world is unreal Inner Strength Be the way you are Where is Shiva not? I am not this person What is real Talks with Bob Adamson Clarity talks with Nathan Gill An ancient story Certificate of Awakening The Mysterious Stranger Extracts from Tony Parsons Seeds for the Soul The Drama of it All Clarity talks with Nathan Gill The Self-Perfected State Amazing Grace The cage of self-centeredness Original mind You Are That All There Is The existence of consciousness A myriad bubbles Beyond the grasp Selling water by the river Awake In The Heartland What is wrong with Right Now? This First Instant Peace of Being Talks with Ramana Maharshi All That Jazz About Silence It is all The background Seeing it Simply The Dream of Space and Time Discovering Already Awake Reincarnation? IN MEMORIAM Basic Questions Integration Simplicity One Essence Thought The Central Teaching Unity Knowledge and Ignorance Inexpressible Door of Nonduality The real "I" Presence/Awareness Awakening to the Natural State Looking for God Life As It Is There is only Source appearing Yearning for otherness Dharmakaya The ever-present nature Getting rid of the ego To Hell with it All! You Are the Self The Search is the Trap The Obvious Are you awakened? The Supreme Self Naturally Timeless Awareness The Absolute Seekers of Enlightenment Presence of Awareness I am... This Amazing Realization I am Life itself Awareness is the Source The Golden Eternity Simple Beingness The Boundless Void Self-enquiry Who pays the bill? Changeless Reality The Precious Treasury Transparent Radiance You Are the Buddha Beyond Good and Evil The real does not die Memory Seeking I Am The Nature of Thinking The Great Way Beyond na?ve affirmation Ping-ting T'ung-tzu Free will versus determinism The End Of Seeking? A Sharing of Timeless Being Present and Obvious Blinded by the Light Hooked on Enlightenment It's marvelous All the world's diversity There is no oblivion Direct insight Remembering and forgetting Letting go Beingness That which appears Manifestation of the Absolute Nothing Being Everything Consciousness This Radiance Benedictory Verse to the Self
    *  ATTD News Letter Number 109   Tuesday, January 15, 2008  *
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Question: I've just finished "Awakening to the Dream" and have also recently digested "Oneness" by John Greven and "Awakening to the Natural State" by John Wheeler.
Since I'm a child of the 60's and a Rinzai Zen practitioner, I can say the phrase "mind blowing" is not inappropriate.
The insights gained from "Awakening to the Dream" are greatly appreciated. For the first time there is clarity on the Heart Sutra; such questions as "What was your original face before your grandparents were born" and the monk stories (Can you pacify my mind? Bring me your mind) etc.
I find it hard to write for clarification without falling into duality/non-duality traps but there are two areas were doubt (perhaps that's the right word) lingers.
I haven't yet gotten the gut absolute belief/feel/certainty that there is "nobody home" and that my true nature is in fact presence/awareness. Maybe I'd say it feels more like 20% in the gut and 80% in the head. How do "I" approach this now? What I have been doing is marinating in the awareness (being the real me) and continuing to look into the fabric of this little "me" illusion by examining my thoughts and feelings.
The second area of clinging doubt relates to the rest of the world. I have read that the world arises in our true nature, awareness/Budda-mind/cognizing emptiness. In some writing the world is likened to a dream, an act of play by Awareness (like the waves are part of the ocean). When I am awareness as described above it seems I am definitely the unchanging background to this local presence but I don't feel it as the generator of the world. Could you perhaps provide some insights on how to approach this element?
Response: Let's see what comes up. You say "I haven't yet gotten the gut absolute belief/feel/certainty that there is "nobody home" and that my true nature is in fact presence/awareness" Can the paradox in this be seen? If there is 'nobody home' then who would have this certainty? The 'I' that would have or know this certainty, doesn't 'know' as it is itself part of 'the known'. One if its attributes is the idea that this 'I' is the knowing subject, while in fact it is a known object.
You say that the conviction of 'your' true nature being in fact presence/awareness feels like 20% in the gut and 80% in the head.
There is 100% awareness of this imagined 20/80 split, which only exists in thought. THAT what knows the coming and going of all thoughts, is itself not a thought. Similarly, THAT what knows the lack of certainty is itself not uncertain. IT clearly sees doubt as doubt without a shadow of doubt.
The Ultimate-Subject -THAT what knows this 'I-dea'- cannot be made into a known object; this 'knowing' cannot be known for the same reason sight cannot be seen. We could call this 'Unknowable-Knowing' or 'Ultimate Subject' Consciousness, Tao, IT or the 'True Self of all.' There is no 'you' to get or be THIS. IT is being you and all that appears.
IT is here right now aware of the reading of these words. IT really, really is not an experience for someone but IT IS the inexperience-able experiencing itself. The lingering assumption that 'something' should happen to make this clear is itself the seeming obstruction to clearly see this. This 'catch 22' is in fact a 'fake problem' which cannot be resolved by action. It is more of a 'seeing through'. It is like the recognition of apparent 'water on the road' as a mirage. Or the recognition that polishing the mirror to get rid of our reflection is futile: Such recognition does not remove the reflection, but the attempt to eliminate it comes to a halt. The problem with this 'let it be' suggestion is of course that now the attempt to let it be, may replace the attempt to polish the mirror to 'full Clarity'; which is in fact another attempt to resolve this non existing problem.
Whether or not a sense of there being someone home appears makes no difference to IT, just like it makes no difference to the mirror what it reflects. If a sense of personal self appears, it is simply the way the One appears to It-Self. IT is the Infinite, experiencing It-Self through assuming the role of a finite character. This is the way the 'game is played' and nothing has to be done about it, nor is there any one to do it. The 'you' that would do something about this, is that which is being done. There is no you living this life, there is only LIFE living as you and all.
Now as to the other part of your question: The Taoists call the appearance of the world and its unchanging background "Mutual Arising." We could say that Awareness is the 'generator' of the manifest world because all appears in awareness, but the split between awareness and its object is purely conceptual. Again, 'Mutual Arising' seems a great pointer. Can we conceive of something that does not appear in awareness, can we find a difference between hearing and a sound? Can we find colors separate from the seeing of colors? Perhaps it is obvious now that splitting 'the generator of the world' and the world itself is purely an idea. The generator and the generated -the dreamer and the dream- are not two.
When the scissor of the mind, which divides this manifestation in 'this and that' in 'you and me' in 'up and down' is quiet for even just a moment, when all labels are gone; THIS is just AS IT IS.
There was never a point in time when IT was created or 'generated' as time itself is part of 'the generated appearance'. Here IT IS, appearing (or 'being generated') presently. This is the Unborn Mystery of 'some-thing' out of 'no-thing. 'You', as a character, will never get closer to IT, nor can 'you' get away from IT. IT is all there is and -as said in the Upanishads- YOU Are THAT.

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You are Consciousness, oneness, all that is, the source and appearance of all. All appearances rise and fall in awareness, nothing else is ever happening. People are passing, clouds are going by, conversations are going on, thoughts appear and disappear. All unfolds presently in awareness.
This appearance as the character is already the perfect expression of oneness ? nothing needs to change for this to be so. No awakening or enlightenment is needed ? all of this is simply the story in the play. There is only already awakeness as oneness, regardless of whether there is mesmerisation with the play of images, or resting in recognition as your true nature.
This present appearance, however ordinary or extraordinary, is the content of awareness. Awareness and content are one ? Consciousness. You are Consciousness ? awake and aware and presently appearing as everything.

        Awakened Poetry

by: Lewis Carroll (1832-1898)
BOAT, beneath a sunny sky
Lingering onward dreamily
In an evening of July--

Children three that nestle near,
Eager eye and willing ear,
Pleased a simple tale to hear--

Long has paled that sunny sky;
Echoes fade and memories die;
Autumn frosts have slain July.

Still she haunts me, phantomwise,
Alice moving under skies
Never seen by waking eyes.

Children yet, the tale to hear,
Eager eye and willing ear,
Lovingly shall nestle near.

In a Wonderland they lie,
Dreaming as the days go by,
Dreaming as the summers die;

Ever drifting down the stream--
Lingering in the golden gleam--
Life, what is it but a dream?

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Before I had studied Zen for thirty years,
I saw mountains as mountains, and waters as waters.
When I arrived at a more intimate knowledge,
I came to the point where I saw
that mountains are not mountains, and waters are not waters.
But now that I have got its very substance I am at rest.
For it's just that I see
mountains once again as mountains,
and waters once again as waters.

~ Seigen Ishin ~
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