Awakening to the Dream

The Gift of Lucid Living

Welcome The world is unreal Inner Strength Be the way you are Where is Shiva not? I am not this person What is real Talks with Bob Adamson Clarity talks with Nathan Gill An ancient story Certificate of Awakening The Mysterious Stranger Extracts from Tony Parsons Seeds for the Soul The Drama of it All Clarity talks with Nathan Gill The Self-Perfected State Amazing Grace The cage of self-centeredness Original mind You Are That All There Is The existence of consciousness A myriad bubbles Beyond the grasp Selling water by the river Awake In The Heartland What is wrong with Right Now? This First Instant Peace of Being Talks with Ramana Maharshi All That Jazz About Silence It is all The background Seeing it Simply The Dream of Space and Time Discovering Already Awake Reincarnation? IN MEMORIAM Basic Questions Integration Simplicity One Essence Thought The Central Teaching Unity Knowledge and Ignorance Inexpressible Door of Nonduality The real "I" Presence/Awareness Awakening to the Natural State Looking for God Life As It Is There is only Source appearing Yearning for otherness Dharmakaya The ever-present nature Getting rid of the ego To Hell with it All! You Are the Self The Search is the Trap The Obvious Are you awakened? The Supreme Self Naturally Timeless Awareness The Absolute Seekers of Enlightenment Presence of Awareness I am... This Amazing Realization I am Life itself Awareness is the Source The Golden Eternity Simple Beingness The Boundless Void Self-enquiry Who pays the bill? Changeless Reality The Precious Treasury Transparent Radiance You Are the Buddha Beyond Good and Evil The real does not die Memory Seeking I Am The Nature of Thinking The Great Way Beyond na?ve affirmation Ping-ting T'ung-tzu Free will versus determinism The End Of Seeking? A Sharing of Timeless Being Present and Obvious Blinded by the Light Hooked on Enlightenment It's marvelous All the world's diversity There is no oblivion Direct insight Remembering and forgetting Letting go Beingness That which appears Manifestation of the Absolute Nothing Being Everything Consciousness This Radiance Benedictory Verse to the Self
    *  ATTD News Letter Number 96   Sunday, December 24, 2006   *
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    Table of Contents.
    Q & A.
Question: There are a few questions (well, only really one). Could I give a quick rundown of the 'story' first then get to them? (not that we have any choice! ..ha!) anyway, babbling again. Will be using lots of I's and me's for the purposes of convention here; its too tricky to communicate otherwise in words ..I'm sure you get this a lot :-)..I know it doesn't matter what is said.. how is your goose?! why do you prefer the color Gerald to the great marshmallow of cheese? (for example!), I know there's no point or certainly no reasoning to be done anymore ..yet this email arises..
So perhaps it can be said that there lies a question? or at least a sense of having to ask an opinion of 'you' ..and that's whether or not you get a sense of there being anyone left at home here (for me) ..or that my apparent understanding is intellectual only..
Answer: Although I recognize what you mean, I do not really make a distinction between 'real' and 'intellectual' understanding. Understanding -or the lack thereof- just happens. The certainty about this understanding comes by itself, whether or not Leo labels it as true understanding. Just go with your gut feeling on this and see that even certainty and uncertainty are temporary occurrences in (or appearances of) What-You-Truly-Are.
Whether or not there is the sensation of 'someone home' at your end doesn't really matter.. IT expresses via a rose as perfume, and via the human mind IT conceptualizes Its presence as 'I AM..' This concept of 'I AM' points to an undeniable Presence. Presence/Beingness is here, whether or not it gets conceptualized as I AM. When this I AM is interpreted as an entity it may get translated by the mind/organism into a 'personal thing' but, as there is only One, even this sense of 'I AM' being personal, is nothing but the One appearing AS such.
Speaking from direct experience, here there is a preference for spaghetti over turnips, there is speaking Dutch rather than Chinese, and 'I' respond to the name Leo more readily that to the name John and so on.
This collection of conditions could be labeled or I-dentified as an 'I'. This 'I' appears as a fluid reference point, which cannot be located anywhere, nor is it known as anything specific. Depending on the situation this 'I' may be totally forgotten? or assumed to be present as whatever appears.
Also, this 'I' is seen as an object appearing in Awareness. It does not 'have' awareness, but there is awareness OF it. One of the I/object's characteristics is that it contains the notion of being the subject. As such we could call it the 'pseudo subject.' Its presence seems to be part of the natural functioning of the organism, and to have its place in 'the overall scheme of things.'
So to your question I have to say that neither for 'you' nor for 'me' there is a 'real' somebody 'home' -even when this 'I' I-dea does appear- as it is not anything fixed or concrete. It seems like a chameleon, changing according to whatever presents itself. It has the same substance as a shadow, a thought, or a mirage: Like an apparition, which is often forgotten and then remembered again, It is and it is not.

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Art by: Salvador Dali Title: 'Apparition of the Face of Aphrodite'
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    Present and Obvious
When you say, 'Things just happen', for me it appears that they are happening to a 'someone', and also that in some way I am instrumental in, for example, going and getting the car and driving. There is a felt sense of 'I'.
Yes. This felt sense of 'I' is the functional sense of being that arises in conjunction with bodily location for daily living in the play. The 'I' with which we are generally concerned here is the 'I' thought which, when assumed, is the basis for the psychological self-sense, which is the story of a life extended in thought, in time.
I can temporarily see that.
Yes, maybe this seeing comes and goes - this 'I' will likely continue to appear and disappear. That's the nature of the play of life. Maybe the 'I' disappears altogether, maybe it is simply seen through - all of this is the play.
Within the play there may be a move to inspect the 'I', whereby it is noticed that it is merely a thought, an idea; that this life of the character apparently extended in time has no actuality outside of the present. The present, or presence, is awareness and its content.
Well, we say 'awareness' but, of course, that is a concept as well.
There is awareness, right now. There is registering of the wall, of the body, of thought. This registering is what the concept 'awareness' points at. Awareness is devoid of all qualities, and so it gets overlooked. It is what is looking, registering, right now - the awareness aspect of your true nature. This registering and what is being registered are not concepts. They are present, obvious. No recourse to thought is needed.

    Awakened Poetry
Pure Consciousness.
?All that is seen is self alone.
All that is heard is self alone.
All that is smelled, or tasted, touched,
or spoken of, or thought, or felt,
is nothing else but self alone.

?In each sensation, each perception,
every thought and every feeling,
self is that which only knows:
unmixed with any kind of act.

?It sees, without an act of seeing
visualizing something else.
It hears without an act of hearing
listening to something else.

?It senses odour as mere smell:
as nothing else but consciousness,
not as the object of an act.

?It tastes, but all it tastes is flavour:
nothing else but consciousness,
not any object of an act.

?It touches all, but in this touching
stays unmoved and does not act.
It does not go from ?this? to ?that?,
but just remains exactly what
it always is: pure consciousness.

~ Ananda Wood ~
From his interpretation of the Brihadaranyaka Upanishad
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    Quote of the Moment!

7. Those who dwell on creation consider it a divine miracle.
Others imagine it is like a dream or an illusion.
8. Some are convinced creation is by the mere will of God.
Those who are fascinated by time declare time to be the source of all things.
9. Others say creation is for God's delight, others that it is for mere sport.
But it is the true nature of the Divine One
- what desire can He have whose every desire is always fulfilled?

~ Gaudapada ~
From his: Karika on the Mandukya Upanishad

the oldest known systematic exposition of Advaita Vedanta.
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Oh, is that so?

God is sitting in heaven when a scientist says to him, ?Lord, we don?t need you anymore. Science has finally figured out a way to create life out of nothing. In other words, we can now do what you did in the ?beginning.??
?Oh, is that so? Tell me...? replies god.
?Well, says the scientist, ?we can take dirt and form it into the likeness of you and breathe life into it, thus creating man.?
?Well, that?s interesting. Show Me.?
So the scientist bends down to the earth and starts to mold the soil.
?Oh no, no, no...? interrupts God,
?Get your own dirt.?

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