Awakening to the Dream

The Gift of Lucid Living

Welcome The world is unreal Inner Strength Be the way you are Where is Shiva not? I am not this person What is real Talks with Bob Adamson Clarity talks with Nathan Gill An ancient story Certificate of Awakening The Mysterious Stranger Extracts from Tony Parsons Seeds for the Soul The Drama of it All Clarity talks with Nathan Gill The Self-Perfected State Amazing Grace The cage of self-centeredness Original mind You Are That All There Is The existence of consciousness A myriad bubbles Beyond the grasp Selling water by the river Awake In The Heartland What is wrong with Right Now? This First Instant Peace of Being Talks with Ramana Maharshi All That Jazz About Silence It is all The background Seeing it Simply The Dream of Space and Time Discovering Already Awake Reincarnation? IN MEMORIAM Basic Questions Integration Simplicity One Essence Thought The Central Teaching Unity Knowledge and Ignorance Inexpressible Door of Nonduality The real "I" Presence/Awareness Awakening to the Natural State Looking for God Life As It Is There is only Source appearing Yearning for otherness Dharmakaya The ever-present nature Getting rid of the ego To Hell with it All! You Are the Self The Search is the Trap The Obvious Are you awakened? The Supreme Self Naturally Timeless Awareness The Absolute Seekers of Enlightenment Presence of Awareness I am... This Amazing Realization I am Life itself Awareness is the Source The Golden Eternity Simple Beingness The Boundless Void Self-enquiry Who pays the bill? Changeless Reality The Precious Treasury Transparent Radiance You Are the Buddha Beyond Good and Evil The real does not die Memory Seeking I Am The Nature of Thinking The Great Way Beyond na?ve affirmation Ping-ting T'ung-tzu Free will versus determinism The End Of Seeking? A Sharing of Timeless Being Present and Obvious Blinded by the Light Hooked on Enlightenment It's marvelous All the world's diversity There is no oblivion Direct insight Remembering and forgetting Letting go Beingness That which appears Manifestation of the Absolute Nothing Being Everything Consciousness This Radiance Benedictory Verse to the Self
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    Q & A.
Question: I have a big problem. my entire life has revolved around the concepts of how my life should be. and it seems that throughout my life I have lived my life through these concepts that I have built up but they have never brought me any lasting happiness. It seems that everything in the outside world and my own self image has never conformed to the rigid thoughts in my head. life is fluid.
At the same time I am afraid that once it is seen through that there is no me I will be completely vulnerable. It seems, even though my thoughts have not brought me happiness, they have protected me. When it is seen through that this entire story of me is false, then what is left? How does life continue when one doesn't become hooked into one's own story? I now feel totally confused, lost, and afraid.
Answer: Fear may arise, but there is nothing to be afraid of when -as you say- "it is seen through that this entire story of me is false."
If that happens, who would be there to suffer the consequences of seeing (t)his non-existence?
When the exclusive 'I-dentification' as the individual character comes unhinged, life unfolds as it always does; by ItSelf and of ItSelf. At the same time it may generate less ideas of an 'I' who has a life, does the thinking, and is confused or vulnerable.
When seen from such a 'no I perspective' reality may appear to flip inside out like an Escher picture. All of a sudden it can be clear that there is no one having a life, but that Life appears as all apparent characters, including 'you.'
Emotions like fear could still arise as a natural functioning to protect the body mind organism, but 'What-You-Truly-Are' is not limited to he body mind organism and needs no protection. IT is Self Arising, Unborn and free of any fear or confusion. You Are THAT Freedom.

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Art by: M.C. Escher Title: 'Other World'
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While it appears that 'I am seeking', there seems to be a path towards an imagined idea of fulfilment. Things happen in the play, which seem to signify very important and special steps towards a final goal. There seems to be a growing or flowering. This is all absolutely, beautifully, perfectly wonderful as well as beautifully, perfectly disappointing. At each apparent step of this spiritual path, there is such hope, which is followed by great disappointment. Hope, that this is the step that is the true way to fulfilment, and disappointment at the discovery that actually, this is not it. But not to worry, the next hopeful step shows its head pretty soon and the path goes on. The seeker actually loves to seek. She is not interested in being found.
Seeking is such a beautiful game. There seems to be such desperation to know. It can seem so painful. The thoughts seem to fight with letting go. Ideas that there is something to do or find, contradict the knowing that there is nothing to do and nowhere to go. There is such fear but also such attraction to falling into not knowing. It often feels like all that is known and familiar is crumbling and that can feel terrifying. It is such an exciting drama of thoughts and emotions. Although it can be incredibly painful, it is also an addictive drug that cannot be given up. The seeker cannot give up itself. Seeking is actually just another way of keeping up the pretence that I am hiding from what I am. The struggle goes on, until it stops.
Then it is recognised that there is no individual seeker. The whole pretence is seen for what it is. There never was a seeker. There was never any path to go anywhere. There is nowhere to go. There is nothing to seek. What is being sought is even in the seeking itself.

From: Unmani's book "I am Life itself"

Art by: Jami Taback Title: 'Seeking'
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Meetings with Unmani in Amsterdam.
Saturday 2nd September. 2.00-5.00pm at:
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P.C. Hooftstraat 183
1071 BW Amsterdam
Cost:20 Euros

Sunday 3rd September from 2-5.30pm at:
Vogelenzangstraat 38-II
1058 ST Amsterdam
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    Awakened Poetry

The moon in the sky
You stop to point at the moon in the sky,
but the finger's blind unless the moon is shining.

One moon, one careless finger pointing --
are these two things or one?

The question is a pointer guiding
a novice from ignorance thick as fog.

Look deeper. The mystery calls and calls:
No moon, no finger -- nothing there at all.

    Quote of the Moment!

... the multitudinousness of objects have no reality in themselves but are only seen of the mind and, therefore, are of the nature of maya and a dream. ...
It is true that in one sense they are seen and discriminated by the senses as individualized objects;
but in another sense, because of the absence of any characteristic marks of self-nature,
they are not seen but are only imagined.
In one sense they are graspable,
but in another sense, they are not graspable.

~ Chokyi Nyima Rinpoche ~ Union of Mahamudra and Dzogchen
From "365 Buddha: Daily Meditations" edited by Jeff Schmidt.
Found in the NDhighlights newsletter.
Art by: Henri Rousseau (1844-1910) Title: 'The Dream'
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