Awakening to the Dream

The Gift of Lucid Living

Welcome The world is unreal Inner Strength Be the way you are Where is Shiva not? I am not this person What is real Talks with Bob Adamson Clarity talks with Nathan Gill An ancient story Certificate of Awakening The Mysterious Stranger Extracts from Tony Parsons Seeds for the Soul The Drama of it All Clarity talks with Nathan Gill The Self-Perfected State Amazing Grace The cage of self-centeredness Original mind You Are That All There Is The existence of consciousness A myriad bubbles Beyond the grasp Selling water by the river Awake In The Heartland What is wrong with Right Now? This First Instant Peace of Being Talks with Ramana Maharshi All That Jazz About Silence It is all The background Seeing it Simply The Dream of Space and Time Discovering Already Awake Reincarnation? IN MEMORIAM Basic Questions Integration Simplicity One Essence Thought The Central Teaching Unity Knowledge and Ignorance Inexpressible Door of Nonduality The real "I" Presence/Awareness Awakening to the Natural State Looking for God Life As It Is There is only Source appearing Yearning for otherness Dharmakaya The ever-present nature Getting rid of the ego To Hell with it All! You Are the Self The Search is the Trap The Obvious Are you awakened? The Supreme Self Naturally Timeless Awareness The Absolute Seekers of Enlightenment Presence of Awareness I am... This Amazing Realization I am Life itself Awareness is the Source The Golden Eternity Simple Beingness The Boundless Void Self-enquiry Who pays the bill? Changeless Reality The Precious Treasury Transparent Radiance You Are the Buddha Beyond Good and Evil The real does not die Memory Seeking I Am The Nature of Thinking The Great Way Beyond na?ve affirmation Ping-ting T'ung-tzu Free will versus determinism The End Of Seeking? A Sharing of Timeless Being Present and Obvious Blinded by the Light Hooked on Enlightenment It's marvelous All the world's diversity There is no oblivion Direct insight Remembering and forgetting Letting go Beingness That which appears Manifestation of the Absolute Nothing Being Everything Consciousness This Radiance Benedictory Verse to the Self
    *  ATTD News Letter number 62    *     Sunday, Sunday, July 31, 2005  *

    Table of contents.

    Q & A.
Question: I have read your book which was a very interesting read. I just have a question about it if that's ok.
Would you say that it does not matter what a person does in life as regards trying to improve himself? Will success or failure happen regardless of what I try to do myself?
I don't know if to try hard to improve my finances, emotions and life situation, or not for example. I keep thinking if I don't try to make things better for myself my life will not improve. I don't want to regret not having acted on the need to make an effort to improve things.
I realize that I do not really exist, but in terms of the dream, I would like my life to improve in many ways. I guess I would feel different if the Ego dropped away for the apparent me.
I find it is difficult also to decide what or how I could improve things. Does it not matter as what is, is? Whatever I apparently decide will be or not be? I just feel like I would not be having a good enjoyable life unless I put effort in to improve it some way. I don't want to miss out on what I could have done by not taking action you see.
In a way it would be a lot easier if pre destination did exist. This way I would know that I could not do anything to change things and therefore there would be no regret at all.
I would really appreciate it if you could share any comments on the above points.
Answer: The text of 'Awakening to the Dream' does not state that improvement of personal circumstances is impossible, but that there is no separate you to do it. When improvements happen they happen, and if this seems to include personal action and input then that is what happens. Here -and in 'Awakening to the Dream'- it is said that there is no 'you' having a life, but only life appearing as everything including the pattern identified as 'you.'
When we compare life to a river, then such a 'you pattern' is much like one of the ripples or bubbles which appear on the stream's surface. They are but temporal appearances on the river and do not have an independent existence. The invitation extended here, is to recognize that there is only the river of life, and that your true identity is nothing less then the whole river.
When there is an urge to improve one's financial status or to learn a new language, or whatever, then that is the way life appears to itself and there is no 'you' in charge of this. Every thought, every action, every hearth beat, every breath, is from and by the One only. The person as the doer and the possessor of 'my' life is again but a pattern in the stream you are.
See how often 'I' and 'myself' feature in your email. This 'I' seems to want, hope, fear, and decide. It seems to be the centre and the root of all doubt. When this is acknowledged, it can be investigated thoroughly. Don't accept anyone's words, and don't just say "I realize I don't really exist" but really find out if this is so.
The word salt is not salty, but points to an actuality which cannot be captured in words. The word 'I' is not what you are but points to -and is an expression of- THAT what you are. Find out if this is so.
If or when it's clear where this 'I' concept points to, then there is no conceptual 'I' to understand this. In the end, when the conceptual 'I' that supposedly is doing the understanding cannot be found, understanding miraculously remains as an expression of 'your' True Nature.
See through the idea of being this body, this character, this collection of ideas and habits, boldly go where no 'I' has gone before, and re-cognize the Freedom-You-Are.

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Painting by: Fred Marsh Title: Poppies at the River Valley
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    You Are the Self
Annamalai Swami: If the thoughts 'I should meditate' or I should realize' arise, ask yourself 'To whom are these thoughts arising?' Why do you need to think about your body and your mind so much? If you are the light, there is no darkness. If you are the Self, there is no thought, no body, and no mind to give you any trouble. Any number of thoughts may come. Let them. But remember all the time, 'I am the Self.' You are not the vasanas (subconscious tendencies), you are not the thoughts, you are the Self. Keep that awareness and don't worry too much about what is going on in your mind, and what it means.
Don't allow identification to settle on you. Don't think, 'I am doing, I am acting, I am sitting.'
You are the Self, not the body. Even your vasanas are the Self. All is your Self. There are no distinctions, no differences in the Self. Nothing is separate from the Self. You cannot find a single atom, a single thought that is apart from the Self. All is the Self.
Question: But is there anything I can do to discover this? Is not all effort pointless if everything that happens to me is predetermined?
Annamalai Swami: All these doubts that are troubling you are simply because you are enmeshed in the 'I am the body' thought and all the confusing consequences that it brings. It is more productive to keep the awareness 'I am the Self' than to analyze the usefulness of effort. Sadhana, effort and practice, and any ideas you may have about them, are concepts that can only arise when you believe that you are not the Self, and when you believe that you have to do something to reach the Self.
Even the sequence 'To who has this thought come? To me,' is based on ignorance of truth. Why? Because it is verbalizing a state of ignorance; it is perpetuating an erroneous assumption that there is a person who is having troublesome thoughts. You are the Self, not some make-believe person who is having thoughts.

From: ' Annamalai Swami: Final Talks'. By David Godman
Swami Annamalai (1906 - 1995) was the personal attendant of Sri Ramana Maharshi

    Awakened Poetry

The Seed Market
Can you find another market like this?
with your one rose
you can buy hundreds of rose gardens?
for one seed
you get a whole wilderness?
For one weak breath,
the divine wind?
You've been fearful
of being absorbed in the ground,
or drawn up by the air.
Now your waterbead lets go
and drops into the ocean,
where it came from.
It no longer has the form it had,
but it's still water.
The essence is the same.
This giving up is not a repenting.
It's a deep honoring of yourself.
When the ocean comes to you as a lover,
marry, at once, quickly,
for Allah's sake!
Don't postpone it!
Existence has no better gift.
No amount of searching
will find this.
A perfect falcon, for no reason,
has landed on your shoulder,
and become yours.

~ Rumi ~
Translated by Coleman Barks
Painting by: John Stoa Title: The Flower Market
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    Quote of the moment!

"We already have everything we need. There is no need for self-improvement. All these trips that we lay on ourselves--the heavy-duty fearing that we're bad and hoping that we're good, the identities that we so dearly cling to, the rage, the jealousy and the addictions of all kinds--never touch our basic wealth. They are like clouds that temporarily block the sun. But all the time our warmth and brilliance are right here. This is who we really are. We are one blink of an eye away from being fully awake."

~Pema Chodron~
From the NDH news letter.

    Smile of the moment!

A penny from God
A mullah wanted to build a new mosque but lacked the financial resources.
As he was a firm believer in the old adage "Trust in God, but tie up your own camel", he tried to find the millions he needed through fund raising and investors. In the end he was still a million dollar short and decided to pray for it.
God heard him and responded by appearing in his dream.
"You have been calling on me, mullah. What can I do for you?"
The surprised mullah thought for a moment and said
"Lord, please tell me, how much is a thousand years for you?"
And God said "It is less then one of your seconds."
"And how much is a million dollars for you, oh lord?"
"That's like a penny to me."
"Then, oh almighty one, can you please give me such a penny?"
"Sure", God said, "just give me a second."

Painting by: Van Der Ouderaa Belgium 1894 Title: Prayer

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